‘A door is closing as it should. As it must in order for the next door to open. Yes, there is a chance that there is a journey between the doors. Time to heal. Time to regroup. Time to shed and release the old and time to make space for the new. What will get you from one door to the next? Faith. Trust in yourself and in this process. What will keep your own light burning? Hope; even a shred is enough to get you there’ ~Anonymous
Being present with how I feel from moment to moment. Or at the end of daily reflections, through holistic balance of all that I recall to have felt. Births understanding that supports me from a place of patience and balance. Balance that embraces without bias the places in which Allah chooses to cultivate understanding. Sabr that accepts it because i know its from him.
Ive spent most of my life understanding others at the expense of myself, taking on board their feelings due to empathy and compassion, with a fallacy of ‘mine can wait‘ on board.
This fragmented my soul into smithereens. I’ve integrated most of what I’ve come to understand and feel no need to rush to get to a finish line as the process heals.
The process of change that through fear related blocks I use to despise, is the process I now feel most alive because in it is Allah.
My actions reflect back to me my strengths and areas that lack it. It reflects back places that have healed and places that await it. Through what I do or don’t do, I witness what flows with inner peace and get to identify what crashes within. Identifying what crashes within from a heart space, has become easier when asked to accept my feelings unconditionally.
Respect what crashes within for the feeling that pushed the breaks has something to give you. What resonates with me is to hold space for my emotions especially the vulnerable ones. To feel them freely and guard it from being infiltrated by any story connected to anyone or thing, that requires or summons an exit through doors linked to understanding that accommodate me upon entering.
Falling into that is how detachment from ones feelings occur you turn on your feelings, that let you receive understanding for others as the root of problem for how you abandoned yourself. Your understanding didn’t make you abandon yourself, you did through what you did with it. It’s a form of escapism to turn on your feelings and only results in the new feelings that were trying to guide you back to yourself becoming suppressed.
Detachment occurs due to Imbalances that stem from unconscious self erasing conditions, of how one accepted & embraced feelings. It’s self erasure because you became conditioned to disregard your own in service to others. So in finding no ‘use’ or space to place your own, you felt it was fair play to detach.
The greatest story to re write is what one considered good. Re write it this time, with your own soul holding the pen. dipping it in ink of unconditional acceptance and love of self. Keep the existing parts where soul approval exists. Be present with your own feelings unconditionally so you can learn how to meet all of your needs the same, for yourself by yourself.