Dawn

Reflecting on some verses in surah duha, where tonight as I happened to glance at the chapter randomly. I found in meaning it connected me to an important period of my life.

One that began in accordance to divine timing and simultaneously ushered me into a new world.

My luggage were my wounds
The language, my feelings
and the currency hope.

The synchronicity in these verses below explain best how I felt and what made me place one foot after the other.

“…Your Lord….has neither forsaken you nor hated you….

He was present and working through me with mercy..

“…Did He not find you…. an orphan and gave you a refuge?…”

Alone, I felt, the emergence of my soul. A half dressed stranger to me she was…but what was even stranger is, she felt like home.

“…found you unaware, and guided you?”

When you make the unconscious Conscious you align with divine will. The illusions of pride rock was gone. Standing in the elephants graveyard I was hopeful I’ll find GOLD and slowly but surely I did, I found the fragmented pieces of my soul.

“…found you poor, and made you rich”

With understanding and true self love he sure did.

“…Therefore, treat not the orphan with oppression”

Those alone on a dark night of the soul journey, I see through my heart and heart only.

“…And repulse not the beggar;”

When under the clutches of the ego, but still able to scramble in search of your soul, I can never be repulsed. For compassion is all I have for you.

“…And proclaim the Grace of your Lord” (Surah ad Duha)

For you Allah I write this post.

Synergy

It’s the space between the bars that hold the lion back. And the gaps between our thoughts that make us who we are.

Somewhere between the moments of stillness in my heart & glitches in my mind. I freeze, I grow, I transform.

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The Heights..

Have you ever experienced a situation where you were going against something your heart knows is for you and so Allah granted you guidance through your intuition….. A guidance that resulted in contradictions of the mental narrative you were fleeing through?

This is the ego not co signing your hearts desire because it doesn’t trust it. It’s fleeing because the situation your soul is aligned with exposes it to discomforts it wishes to avoid.

The egos foundation is based on fear, it’s motive and life force is embedded in only one thing and that is survival.

A person brave enough to confront the internal conflict that arises as a result of Allah’s signs, that contradict the mental constraints of the ego they were engulfed in. Ends up in a valley where they know in their hearts, that their soul isnt co signing their fear based thoughts about matter for a reason.

And so through hope & faith they stop running and become still instead. Trusting in the point of que sera sera (what will be will be)

They recognise that in fleeing there is no inner peace and what is inner peace except the souls language of approval. The soul is always motivated in the direction of wholeness, of you being complete and so inner peace is its way of communicating that you are in alignment with that.

With that all said it must also be said, that this is just one side of the coin. The other side is what this post entry is really about.

What happens when through the egos will to survive one runs to a matter their soul isn’t aligned with?

The same internal conflict arises but in this case the intuition, the hunch is seen as a burden that threatens what is being pursued. The individual begins to compensate by becoming a servant to the external matter that plays a part in bringing the internal conflict into fruition. They cut themselves down to size. Sometimes even compromising their own dignity and directly affecting their wellbeing.

‘If I do this then this fear won’t occur’ ‘it’s just a crease in the affair that can be ironed out’
‘A complication, most things have them, I’ll be patient’

Shaytan infiltrates this person through the concept of benefit of the doubt, and through compromise. It dresses self bettayal like this because he relies on the exploitation of reason in persons mind.

Because to most these are good traits so why or how can it be a problem? It’s a problem because these traits are being summoned by the ego mind and not stemming from the individuals heart soul space.

This difference between the above examples where internal conflict exists is crucial.

When you flee from what your heart and soul co-sign simply because the external reality about matter scares the shit out of you. In ignoring the incongruence that comes from your chosen act of abandoning ship (fleeing), you betray yourself to serve your egos will to survive.

And When you stay despite your heart and soul not co signing matter you cling to, (and it isn’t co signed when your intuition goes against it) Then you remain to your own detriment.

This is self betrayal of the highest order. So self betrayal can occur in a matter whether you fled or stayed. The point is necessarily connected to the position you took, but more is determined by the influence behind it, because each situation is different.

If Listening to your intuition (heeding the signs Allah gives you directing you to a certain truth) is the policy. The procedure can at times be to stay and at times to flee and never look back. The procedure you adopt must be in alignment with the policy above…. if khayr and success is what’s hoped for.

Don’t ignore your hunches for true justice starts with being just with yourself.

Hunches/intuitions don’t come out from mid air for no reason. They are indicators assisting a truth that requires your attention.

When you are afraid to face it’s message and are quick to go in to a management position of your own feeling. Then you are erasing a part of you (that Hunch is a part of you)

Quite often, such hunches are dismissed because one can’t compartmentalise the hunch into a logical framework that helps them to decipher its meaning in the moment. To decipher in a way that supports their motive to continue the pursuit of external matter in question.

If the feeling can not be qualified by a fact then it’s easy to dismiss it. Especially more, when said feeling is going against a matter they wish to acquire, achieve or to manifest. Much to the approval of their ego that has ‘okayed’ this goal because it’s working in tandem to what it legislated as part of its comfort zone.

In cases like this the intuition (guidance from Allah in matter) is registered as a disturbance, it makes the person feel imbalanced and challenged about what it is that they want. What it is that they pursue. What their ego calls to is more comforting and so they make the choice to follow it. By the time the illusion is revealed it is often to late. This is the meaning in the ayah…

“Have you seen he who has taken as his god his [own] desire, and Allah has sent him astray due to knowledge and has set a seal upon his hearing and his heart and put over his vision a veil? So who will guide him after Allah ? Then will you not be reminded?” (Quran 45:23)

“Taken as his god his own desire” why does the Quran say this? Because through consideration of intuition (that came as divine guidance to direct to what’s in cohesion to persons highest good) the ego is sent into melt down because of the discomfort it perceives and so all of the individuals chosen actions, from that moment onwards, become infiltrated by the egos will to survive. The hunch is suppressed and the person continues on their chosen path.

These examples are the psychology behind doubts that are faced with courage and red flags that are ignored. The thin line that exists between the two, can only be fathomed from a heart & soul space.

Allah never abandons an individual, they are prone to abandon themselves through fear in both kinds of situations. They are always divinely assisted. And a sign of divine assistance is when the heart is not aligned to the matter thats pursued because through soul leaks, intuition is communicating and directing to something.

Allah guides through intuition, what many relate to as a “Hunch”

And it’s in these moments where we are meant to pause and reflect on why something is a amiss, why there is a mis alignment. Those true to themselves do, because the duality in them collapses due to the internal conflict that arose within.

As for those who suppressed the internal conflict through justifications that led to compensating their way through matter…

There are two verses in surah al ‘araf (Quran chapter the heights) that addresses their circumstance best.

“…And recite (O Muhammad pbuh) to them the story of him to whom we gave Our Ayaat (proofs, evidences and signs) but he threw them away, so Shaitaan followed him up, and he became of those who went astray.”

“And had We willed, We would surely have elevated him therewith but he clung to the earth and followed his own vain desire. So his description is the description of a dog: if you drive him away, he lolls his tongue out, or if you leave him alone, he (still) lolls his tongue out.

( Al-Acraaf 7:175-6)

Self betrayal begins when the signs of Allah about a matter are seen as burdens (and not a friend in deed) thus is acted against. “Thrown away”

It’s Seen as a burden because it threatens the egos version of stability. The above verses in surah “al ‘araf” are about those who fail to act on a truth revealed to them by Allah.

With the Quran being timeless in meaning, i think there is a synchronicity about these verses being in a chapter called the heights.

Background tafsir about this chapter highlights that al araf is a hill like mountain where the people stood on it, are suspended between the two worlds of paradise and hell. The synchronicity in relation to topic is in the profound truth that when the type of internal conflicts explained in this article arise, the individual is suspended between following their soul or ego.

A tug of war where truth is concerned will always have ego versus soul at either end of it.

“..so Shaitaan followed him up, and he became of those who went astray.”

Upon turning away shaytan follows the person up through his ego fears and cements his chosen path for him by highlighting the fears that made him turn away in the first place. As previously stated the soul is motivated in the direction of wholeness. So shaytan following up is to ensure that this person doesn’t eventually turn back.

He reminds them of the ego fears that made him originally cling heavily to the earth (to chosen path) irrespective of the fact that they didn’t have inner peace about matter.
This person goes astray because he ran from the truth under the clutches of the ego that had a will to survive. and the sad part is if the individual was true to themselves Allah would have facilitated a path that honoured them.

“And had We willed, We would surely have elevated him therewith but he clung to the earth and followed his own vain desire”

Operating through the egos dictation leaves no space for one to be receptive to the help of Allah.

The soul leaves this space because it recognises Allah. The ego is formed through wounds and only recognises what it registers as protecting you from experiencing said wound. It runs the show that is ones life based on this blueprint of survival.

The ego is not something that can be amputated out, it is also a part of us that shouldn’t be vilified for its ways but rather made concious so it can be integrated back to its destined position, which is to assist the soul, not run ones life in its place.

The only expert on the ship is the human soul the part of us that is eternal and will never die. But most importantly the part of us motivated through wholeness, through truth.

When Allah gives us signs and shows us proofs of a matter we are meant to take heed, not cling heavily to the earth through ego based desires. The reward for those who take heed is elevation.

“his description is the description of a dog: if you drive him away, he lolls his tongue out, or if you leave him alone, he (still) lolls his tongue out”

And The consequence for those who don’t is humiliation. Individual is left at the mercy of the external reality that doesn’t take their wellbeing into consideration.
So whatever is done to them they remain shackled until they see and opt for a way out this time heeding the signs of Allah that came for them not against them.

And the promise of Allah has shown consistent truth for men and women of understanding, who prone to reflect and connect the dots looking back.

May he protect us from following our fear based ego desires. Allah has given us free will to choose. And our will carries with it an ability to manifest an entire reality.

Plan A

Relief,stability,fulfilment,belonging, contentment, victory and ease all beautiful branches of inner peace.

I hope for my loved ones to find shelter in its shade & to find a home that honours its name.

Someone asked me recently what I feared the most and wanted most…

Ive contemplated a lot about the intuitive answers I gave…

I feared most, not self actualising before I die and I wanted most,freedom. Free from what? Until last year I didn’t really actually know. But on a soul level there has always been a void in my heart…I just knew I wasn’t free.

“I freed a thousand slaves. I could have freed a thousand more if only they knew they were slaves.”

This quote attributed to Harriet Tubman use to resonate with me a lot. I understand why,now. The reasons behind my desires for relief, were buried in my subconscious mind.

I see it akin to smoke signals from my soul,I could feel it, but the feelings didn’t have a home where it’s message could be decoded.

I feared to die before I self actualised and wanted most freedom from the blocks that stood in its way. The responses to the aforementioned questions, revealed a lot to me. Most of all, that the world is free from my core needs and not taxed by my core goals.

My fears and desires are connected to Allah alone. Only he can make them redundant and facilitate for them.

In looking at my fears and wants I’ve become lost in a valley named “when”
The emotions that were meant to serve as a gps, I’ve not tapped into there. But
the good news is I can now, alhamdulilaah.

I have no room for despair in my heart, instead I know he sees my destination so I’m never alone, he is time so I’m exactly where I’m suppose to be and mankind is lost, except those who believe.

I believe in his plan A, and trust it so as to surrender my plan B.

May our will be aligned with his.

When bani Israel came to the land of Canaan. They feared the strength of the cannanites and as a result didn’t want to enter upon them to fight. Aside from Musa and Harun (alayhis Salam) not even a handful were prepared to obey Allah’s plan. If only they would put have their trust in Allah. Instead they told Musa & Harun, to go with their Lord and fight, as they remained behind to watch. Musa gave up on them, after seeing this latest act of rebellion. And so Allah decreed that Bani Israel would be condemned to wander in the wilderness for forty years, before they would be allowed to enter the land of Canaan.

They weren’t sent there to transform the wilderness into a kingdom, it was for the wilderness to transform them.

I don’t despair of the mercy of Allah, NOT because I feel entitled to it or deserving of it, but because unlike bani israel im willing to fight for my freedom and I acknowledge all of his mercy extended towards them…how no matter the rebellion there he was, as al khaliq (the one who creates) providing opportunities to expand them.

What then of us who lost our way due to unconscious programming. Would Allah forget with us the fitra/natural disposition he created us with?

He is not a lord who forgets. Rather an all knowing god with immense mercy. A mercy that supersedes his anger, a mercy that sees our lost fitra.

A mercy that wants us to come back to him. Free from the shackles of ego. And living free from our heart space. A mercy I have awe of and hope in…

Even if I don’t self actualise he is the only one I know who rewards efforts.

I’m pleased with him as my lord, sufficient is he whether in one place I’m lost and in another not.

A Gift by Him

The ‘evolution’ of our souls, the fulfilment of our potential, is dependent on Allah’s grace, Hope is the connect and the process of true trust in him.

It is a gift given by him …it should be honoured for the inner peace it brings, appreciated as it springs from the heart, allow it to flourish through gratitude, instead of fleeing from it through doubt.

Hope allows awareness to be tolerated, hope allows confusion to be embraced. It combats the compulsions that can lead one astray. It reveals the subtle truth that where you are led, is greater than where you stood….

Covert Power Play

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Although mankind share many differences the bridge is in the magic of our similarities. Similarities that even if precarious through doubt in some, have the power to be cemented in others.

Our similarities in perception can fluidly travel to and fro from the above types. My favourite among such similarities is that of the power of perception.

Irrespective of the external differences that separate people into “us” and “them” mainly, race, religion and gender. Perception serves as a magical bridge that binds hearts and minds in understanding because what is perception except as popularly translated in the dictionary,as the way in which something is regarded, understood,or interpreted.

It can be argued based on the content in image above, that Queen Elizabeth’s refusal to respond to the request of apologising for britains role in the slave trade is because she is _______ (fill in gap with any charge that claims a narrative connected to racism and lack of empathy)

Such an argument stems from the perception of the one making it, which isn’t something I personally care to condemn, refute or debate.

I’m interested more in sharing what came from my own perception. I read excerpt from a article discussing Megan markles ancestry amidst talks of her shared ancestry with prince harry.

The first feeling I had was….that’s a bit awkward, followed by a thought that asked why put the request to her publicly?and then another that was criticism based ‘it’s funny how some people expect muslims to apologise for heinous crimes done in the name of Islam’. A train of thoughts followed, that led me to my annoyance for all those who did apologise due to similar pressures that accompany such matters. My annoyance came from my individual personality that couldn’t and still doesn’t accept such situations when I’m made to witness it.

Because of that, I as a black Muslim didn’t have a problem with Queen ELizabeths claimed refusal to apologise.

Why? Because the request seemed like a covert power play and in the grand scheme of things, I felt that she recognised that and actually respected her for refusing, solely because of that.

Those who felt frustrated by it perhaps did so because the need behind the power play was not satiated. And those who were not bothered by it (like me) were not because of the perception we have about it.

“Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves” ~C.G. Jung

Whatever the reaction whether frustrated or not bothered, it’s important to note that we merely serve as the audience the one attempting the covert power play, relies upon for the support that ensures the success of their attempt.

Ever since 9/11 happened I have genuinely cringed when ever I saw someone feel entitled enough to request or expect, a Muslim to apologise for or disassociate themselves from attacks that harmed innocent people. Through the condemnation of the attackers, simply because said attackers shared similarity in religion or race. (I cringed even more when some did it)

The entitled individual was exercising a covert power play over the Muslim whether knowingly or not in such situations. The choices presented were basically; apologise so I can feel better and if you don’t it means you are like them!

My soul has never felt comfortable witnessing such psychological power plays. Successful Covert power plays leaves the aggressor feeling powerful and the victim of it powerless. It’s an exchange that taxes on ones honour whilst granting the other an illusion of increase in their own.

The motive for empowerment is concealed in what ever narrative the sought after empowerment is presented through, hence why it’s covert. It’s disgusting to say the least. In some ways even cowardly as it shares fragrance with passive aggressiveness.

Elizabeth may have condemned slavery in other ways but it’s the refusal of requests like this that many choose to judge by. Although I have no interest in other people’s conclusions per say, I do care about how certain truths can be obscured when viewed through a black and white lens.

It opens the doors for much judgement as a battle of the twits commences. A black person who shared my perception on this matter can be quickly labelled a sell out who isn’t “woke” and a white person who has it will be labelled a concealed bigot, relentless perhaps in making excuses.

When the truth is in today’s day and age differences in perception, is what separates people into a new form of us versus them.

I’m just wondering what is us and them in this context? Intellectuals vs pseudo intellectuals?

This isn’t about pride it’s about honour, and what is self love without the awareness of when you are getting mugged off on the sly? Successful covert power play simply means you’ve been subdued successfully.

It’s successful because one remains non the wiser while it happens to them. Apologising through empathy or stating your position about something through compassion for another as a show of solidarity, isn’t the same. Definitely not the same when that intent is fulfilled through you being a victim of a covert power play that invited you to state what have you, in the first place.

The former elevates a soul and the other dishonours through subjugation. The former shows a strength of character whilst the latter the lack thereof (for many reasons)

What’s interesting is I feel compassion for the one covert power play is exercised on and anger towards the doer. I feel anger for the latter because they attempt to commit, what I see as psychological humiliation on another.

Islam doesn’t only place value on human life but also the honour of a human being. And a coverted power play attempt disregards that ones honour is sacred.

Is it fair for me to state that one who has been subjugated under such circumstances lacks character?

In some cases yes and in others no, there is a plethora of reasons as to why this happens. In summation the reasons that support the no in my answer above, is because some people get subjugated due to blind spots that stem from unconscious matters in play in their own psyche. Matters that can’t really be equated to their character by default. The reason why I view it as an attempt on ones honour is why I also see those who don’t see through it, as having a lack of character. It’s that lack that allowed the infringement on their honour, an infringement I feel their wholesome character could have evaded.

Character is something that can be built as well as discovered the more one understands themselves. It’s innate gifts can be discovered and through experience and knowledge other aspects of character can be acquired. Hence why I like to shed light on these things.

After all at times ones perception of granting the benefit of the doubt in some cases towards some people, is also the root cause as to why covert power plays
happen to be successful. What’s more it’s the shield of ‘misunderstanding’ that the one waging it hides behind. It’s what gives them the guts to attempt it.

So Perception is not only the lens through which reality is understood. It’s also the lens that leads to what reality one experiences…..in any given situation.

Disregard? Regard Dis…

To respond to ones disregard is to disregard the fact that you have been disregarded. It doesn’t seem that way in the moment though, in the moment you most likely feel like you are checking an absurdity. A diabolical piece of nonsense that is in need of correction. Your correction of course….

It’s always in nuanced moments that we are granted the gift of expansion, often without realisation. Ironically It is in such moments that we also steer off course, leaving our ports of reason.

To look back later with a bewildered thought process that asks my favourite question of all “what the hell was that?”

Favoured because it captures the nature of the aforementioned nuances. In its conclusion it encapsulates and balances both the event and your contributions to it effectively. You have to get to know what the hell that was!

“To recognize one’s own insanity is, of course, the arising of sanity, the beginning of healing and transcendence.” ~ Eckhart Tolle

One shouldn’t converse with disregard
nor take defence as a weapon.

To do the former is to co sign your erasure and to resort to the latter is to live in disorder, whilst assuming you are creating order.

Above it all one shouldn’t take shame as a companion and fear as a tenant.

When someone disregards your voice or your needs, whatever you disregard in such moments, it must never be the disregard itself. Due to misunderstanding of what your actions actually represent.

The intention to check the nonsense is a trap that makes one give nothing but validity to it.

If the nonsense was a disregard of you than in response to it, you grant validity to being disregarded. Honouring yourself by walking away, removes from the other the validity that hides them from their own shadow. The validity that illuminates the illusion that due to your reaction, matter is now levelled.

The hardest cross road a person can face, is the cross road of choosing between transcendence over a problem and entanglement with the problem.

It is hard because in the moment with adrenaline high you don’t see the choices for what they actually are. (transcendence or entanglements) No you see injustice and speaking out. Which is the case when you are summoned through compulsion and not composure.

Nothing has ever made me grow more than to wander about my own insanity and watch through it sanity be born.

“…and half of learning to play is learning what not to play
and she’s learning the spaces she leaves have their own things to say.
and she’s trying to sing just enough so that the air around her moves
and make music like mercy that gives what it is and has nothing to prove

she crawls out on a limb and begins to build her home
and it’s enough just to look around and to know that she’s not alone

up up up points the spire of the steeple
but god’s work isn’t done by god
it’s done by people”
~ Ani DiFranco

Worth knowing…

There seems to be a lot of focus on the topic of others forgetting ones worth. There isn’t enough focus on the more important reality that we ourselves have misunderstood the very foundation and function of our own worth.

In most quotes about worth we see statements like “your value doesn’t decrease on someone’s inability to see your worth”

Or “Never measure your self worth by what others think you should become”

Even though both statements are true,it constantly directs the mind towards the false notion, that ones worth is only at risk of being forgotten or not seen or valued due to the shortcomings of others. The focus on crime against our worth not being acknowledged, is therefore pitted against the external reality first and foremost.

This leads to resentment of experiences and shame during them. What’s worse the self criticism that arises in the individual, becomes a burden because the premise behind it is unjust and irrationally fashioned.

When we consider the fact that our worth is fixed, that it is something we are born with and not something we cultivate through knowledge or skills we obtain in this world. Then we come to the realisation that our worth isnt also something we can increase or decrease.

It is our potential it is a gift carried by and imprinted into our individual souls.

There is a profound liberation from limiting beliefs and shameful judgemental feelings, when we view our worth through the correct understanding that its foundation is absolute and not relative. That its function is fixed and not malleable.

If our worth cannot be increased or decreased. Then presuming our actions or non actions that leave us feeling disappointed or shamefully self critical, have a correlation to us doing a disservice to our own worth becomes nonsensical.

Presuming how others treat us being a reflection of our value as individuals by default also makes no sense.

Our worth is something that is there in and of itself whether not acknowledged at any given time by you yourself or another.

Anything you do or don’t do, anything done to you or not done to you. anything you achieve or don’t achieve…bears no mark on your worth.

Talents are an expression of our worth it isn’t our worth per say. Talents are glimpses of our potential and our potential is our worth.

Our unrealised potential is our unrealised worth. We strive to meet it and to embody it yes, but to forget it’s there? Would be a misguidance that gives unconscious core beliefs ample room to roam and manoeuvre so as to direct our fates.

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To truly understand this is to achieve freedom from the mental constraints and judgments that shackle and limit us. Every sad feeling or disappointment we have, carries the huge momentum it does only because we unconsciously relate it to our worth. When our worth is protected and sacred.

It isn’t something that can be taken away, something we can get rid of, chop up or expand. It is simply something we can use or not use. Acknowledge or not acknowledge.

The comfort and liberation is in knowing it’s there and it never went anywhere. Nor will it ever.

We celebrate our worth when we feel good about ourselves or when external matters we strive towards reflect back to us success.

When we don’t and it doesn’t we are quick to presume a lack of worth.

This assumption is deep rooted in the misunderstanding of the blue print of our worth.

Our worth is a gift that was never destined to be diminished by our actions. Our actions can utilise it but can never take away from it.

Flaws are not a signal for absence of worth. It is sign of being human…

The Self & the Soul

Flashbacks play the role of the witness
and our hearts?…the platform that was pillaged.

The question “How did I get here?”is like a traffic light signal, inviting the self to take a second look. It’s encouragement of the soul for the self to see. A chance to cultivate understanding, for all that it (the soul) knows. The self may at times lack awareness but the soul was there concious and still through all of life’s experience.

‘…Certainly, I run the affairs of My servants by My Knowledge of what is in their hearts. Certainly, I am the All-Knower, All-Aware’” [Tabarani]

As we unintentionally project onto Allah all that we feel about ourselves. We exercise an oversight in regards to his mercy and knowledge of what is truly in our hearts. What we reveal and conceal is perhaps most easiest to understand but what about all that is stored away blocked through unconscious veils never having seen the light of acknowledgement.

He guides, our only task is to be receptive and live in the moment.

He knows, and for us to be able to hold space for that which he knows, being more than we could imagine. Due to the barrier between the self and the soul is true pragmatism & sound reason.

It would be a lie for anyone to say I see I know and so I’ll act. Or regarding a successful past matter, where sound conclusions for it exist…… it would be a lie to say I saw I knew and so I acted, as a summary of what happened.

No we see or saw and the rest is and was, always a mercy from Him. A mercy that assists or assisted us on our individual journeys.

There is a relationship between Allah and the soul that the self is not always privy too….

I think the moments where the self comes to know about this relationship, are the only times it truly feels inner peace.

Anxiety and choas reign supreme in a being, when we allocate understanding of “knowledge of what’s in their hearts” to simply be to what the self knows.

That is not the knowledge by which Allah runs our affairs. It’s a mere fraction of it. Usually the fraction that causes us the most anguish. Because through it we judge and berate ourselves for mistakes made, through it we can end up in the valley of despair. Through it we project onto Allah. Through it we do too much…

The self often has access to knowledge of the how and not the why, the soul both and Allah a witness of it all. So through that barrier that keeps the self out, Allah knows and through his mercy with that knowledge and more he governs our affairs. Through his grace he opens the door to understanding…

Through him in many ways we are blessed.